How Writing Has Been Lately
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Malene Thyssen
The wake after the ferry to Fanø, Denmark
Time to write
5 pm rolls around
Pencil poised
Something nudges
And words start
Words, pictures—a lack of
translation
Disjunct
Lack of grounding
Free fall
Stuff starts
Stuff
Words
Unrelated, unreal
Tangential
Stuff, words, partial
words
Crap, cross out
Begin again
Poised
Nudge
Go with the stuff
words drift onto page
stuff—stuff
crap and more crap
so much crap
I can’t believe it
a moment
relapse
poised
go
oh catch a wave and go
there in the curl
a bit of glimmer
some poetry maybe
who knows
ride it out
it feels right
go before it can dissolve
crash
waves end you know
peak and crash
I hate the crash
Back to crap I see
Notebooks full of it
Crash
Crap
So much alike at the end
copyright/all rights reserved Audrey Howitt 2013
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first, dont be so hard on yourself...we all write crap...its part of the deal...i would say 90% of what i write is crap but you got to go through it to get to the nuggets...that 10% thats good...what is good too is that you are writing...write...write...write...its how you get there...smiles...
ReplyDeleteThanks Brian--I appreciate the words of comfort--I've been struggling more lately--smiles to you as well
DeleteAudrey sometimes it is tough. Try my method. I get a little inspiration, just not sure what to write and then I sit at the keyboard and my fingers just fly across the keys. Afterwards I read what I have written to edit and sometime it amazes me that I could possibly have written that. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteThank you Yamarella--I do feel like I need to be inspired somehow--I will give your suggestion a try!
DeleteAudrey. Your words always have an impact on me. You've expressed today quite accurately how I have often felt!
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm willing to bet a million dollars (damn,if only I really had it to bet lol) you know the lack of pleasing words is temporary. The self castigation is a passing moment...words will always come to you. It's who you are.
I am hoping so! Thank you for your kind words!
DeleteNice, realistic look at a writer's day. I had it yesterday. Nothing I wrote sounded inspired or even interesting. LOL I finally gave up and went for a walk with Bev. Tomorrow is a new day. :)
ReplyDeleteWell...I usually blog 3-4 times per week and I only did twice this week...the words wouldn't come. We gotta give ourselves permission to not have the words sometimes. We have to refill our literary pail by going and doing other things. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you--especially for understanding!
Deleteoh, there's beauty in crap (yes, that definitely sounds so wrong) - and self-reflection, too.
ReplyDeletetime for a break . when the pen weighs heavy, just leave it lying on the table to sulk.
I love the idea of it sulking on the table!
DeleteThe feeling is familiar as often experienced by poets! That uncanny fault of writer's block can emerge at the most vulnerable moment. But it is still a challenge in looking at all the crap in between! Nicely Audrey!
ReplyDeleteHank
Thank you Hank!
DeleteI can to relate to trying to "oh catch a wave" and trying to snatch the "glimmer" and then seeing the crash.
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